{"id":18403,"date":"2017-08-03T01:08:20","date_gmt":"2017-08-03T00:08:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.johncoulthart.com\/feuilleton\/?p=18403"},"modified":"2017-08-03T03:28:02","modified_gmt":"2017-08-03T02:28:02","slug":"being-prepared","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.johncoulthart.com\/feuilleton\/2017\/08\/03\/being-prepared\/","title":{"rendered":"Being PrEPared"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I don’t know when I first noticed that the word “introvert” contains the word “invert” but if I require a shorthand self-identification beyond the vocational then “introvert invert” is a suitable candidate. Being an introvert isn’t always easy in a resolutely extrovert world, but being an introvert invert has considerable drawbacks, such as how you meet anyone like yourself when the available meeting places\u2014club and bars\u2014inspire severe loathing. Clubbing is no longer the only option now that we have online dating (and gay clubs have been dying off in any case\u2026) but the options were few in the 1980s. It’s impossible for me to think about any of this without considering that if I wasn’t such an introvert I might not be alive today. I was 20 in 1982 when the AIDS epidemic was starting to travel the world; had I been more gregarious I might have been investigating all those wretched clubs and bars instead of sitting at home, listening to music and drawing pictures.<\/p>\n

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The Thatcher government only started to get serious about HIV\/AIDS in 1987 when this information leaflet was delivered to every household in Britain. (See scans of the whole thing here<\/a> and here<\/a>.) There was also an accompanying public information film<\/a> narrated by John Hurt, and directed by Nicolas Roeg, of all people. It was quickly replaced with other films that were less apocalyptic.<\/em><\/p>\n

Whatever your attitude to nightlife, if you were gay in the 1980s then AIDS was omnipresent even before it became an issue that politicians dared to discuss in public. I remember when Patrick Cowley died (November 1982); I remember when Klaus Nomi died (August 1983); I bought the Panic\/Tainted Love<\/em> single by Coil when it was released (May 1985), the profits of which went to AIDS charity The Terrence Higgins Trust (the first record release to make such a donation). Coil’s doom-laden Horse Rotovator<\/em> album from 1986 was shaped by the group’s experience of watching many of their friends succumb to illness and death. There were many other such responses, one of the greatest being the monumental Masque Of The Red Death<\/em> album cycle by Diamanda Gal\u00e1s, dedicated to Gal\u00e1s’s brother and her friends who were killed by the epidemic. I can’t think of artist and writer Philip Core without remembering the interview he gave to The Late Show<\/em> from his hospital bed in 1989, a hollow-eyed ghost of his former self. The accumulated fear and paranoia of a dark decade lingered into the 1990s even after condom-use had become widespread and HIV became manageable with drug treatments.<\/p>\n

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The paranoia of the 1990s is one of the first things that Evan J. Peterson discusses in The PrEP Diaries<\/em>, an account of growing up gay in America at a time when HIV was treatable but still something to be worried about. Evan is a friend whose previous books have been mentioned here (one of which I contributed to<\/a>), but this is his first non-fiction title, a witty and enlightening combination of erotic memoir and public service declaration. “PrEP” refers to the drug marketed in America as Truvada, a pre-exposure prophylaxis anti-viral medication which has been gaining use in the US as a preventative treatment for HIV. The drug’s use is recommended primarily to partners of those who are HIV+ but it’s also being recommended to gay men with active sex lives as an additional safeguard against HIV. I’ve been aware of Truvada for several years but since it still isn’t easily available in the UK I’ve not followed the discussion around its use or effectiveness very closely.<\/p>\n

One of the reasons for Evan writing The PrEP Diaries<\/em> was to widen the discussion about PrEP\/Truvada by showing how his own use of the medication has helped dispel the paranoia he felt about HIV risks, a paranoia that had been with him since childhood. He was born in 1982, the year that AIDS first began to make headlines so he’s of a generation that has never known a time without the risk of HIV. One of the notable things about his book is the way it shows the substantial differences of experience between the gay and straight worlds, differences that persist even as legislative equality grows. Sexual risk is one of these differences, something you’re always aware of if you’re gay or bisexual but which the straight world seldom considers at all. I have a half-brother who’s a few years older than Evan, and two nephews who are a decade younger; all are straight, and I doubt that any of them have given more than a moment’s thought to the idea that sexual activity could have life-changing consequences even though viruses don’t care about your sexuality. HIV can be kept under control today yet it continues to spread, in part because the serious concerns of previous decades are no longer prevalent. You can’t go on any gay dating site without eventually seeing someone with “poz” in their name or some other indication (usually a + symbol) of their HIV status. One of the benefits of PrEP that Evan discusses is its helping people who are HIV+ to find more partners as well as protecting those partners from infection. He also emphasises something you seldom see mentioned in general discussion of HIV, that positive status doesn’t describe a single condition; some people are positive but undetectable, meaning that their viral load is extremely small.<\/p>\n

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The erotic memoir side of The PrEP Diaries<\/em> contains a further example of the difference between the gay and straight worlds in its discussion of sexual activity. For straight people (and, yes, I’m generalising) sex invariably means penetrative intercourse with or without foreplay of some sort. This isn’t the case for gay men, bisexuals or lesbians yet I often wonder how aware straight people are of this, at least where men having sex with men are concerned. Minorities of any type always know a great deal about the majority because majority attitudes, preferences and behaviours are unavoidable; the reverse is seldom true at all. If you’re a straight person who thinks that two men in bed always means an act of anal sex taking place then Evan is here to disabuse you. (He’ll also make you laugh while he’s doing it.) Elsewhere in the book there’s a short interlude that offers a glimpse of the world we might be living in if all the artists, writers, musicians, filmmakers, actors, designers, etc, who died in the 1980s and 90s were still alive and working today. (By coincidence I’m writing these words on the 20th anniversary of the death of Fela Kuti, one of the people who Evan mentions.)<\/p>\n

All of the discussion in\u00a0The PrEP Diaries<\/em> is from an American perspective but it’s still useful for readers outside the US, especially in Britain where Truvada is currently only available in Scotland. (Legislation and other matters often differ from country to country inside the UK.) This news story<\/a> is only the most recent showing that HIV is still flourishing in Britain, but the introduction of any new drug is currently compromised by the way the present government has been starving the NHS of funds in order to ease future privatisation. When so much current discussion of the NHS concerns differing degrees of crisis it’s difficult to imagine a new HIV treatment being a priority, but books like The PrEP Diaries<\/em> and articles like this equally informative one by Matt Cain<\/a> are adding to the weight of a compelling argument for its use.<\/p>\n

Evan’s book has at least had the effect of making me wonder whether I’d start using PrEP myself. It’s possible, although I’d have to find out more about some of the (minor) side effects that he mentions such as digestive upset. I suffered a bad bout of IBS a few years ago which still flares up occasionally so I’m wary of anything that might bring that back. I’m also one of those counter-hypochondriac types who regards pill-popping outside serious illness as a thing to be avoided. But I’ll be following the public discussion much more closely from now on.<\/p>\n

The PrEP Diaries<\/em> is available from Lethe Press<\/a> as a paperback or ebook.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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